It has been so long since my last blog.... life is nuts and unpredictable. For someone with anxiety that is a nightmare. Big M changed schools this year. This is her freshman year, and we spent the better part of the summer debating this change. All in all, this is what she actually wanted to do. Surprise, surprise... Unbeknownst to us, she had been struggling with life for about 6 mo. prior to this change, and this was her way of trying to gain back some control. We changed... all was seemingly going well. Then the bottom fell out so to speak, and life became very messy.
About a month ago, she approached me and said that she had been struggling with severe depression since January and had been thinking about harming herself.. What would our lives look like without her? We had an emergency family meeting and decided that counseling was in order. So.... now we have a great therapist, whom I will call Dr. R. My prayer is that Dr. R will help her get a handle on the anxiety.. We have recently seen signs of OCD as well, and that scares me.. I guess they have always been there, but now they are more pronounced.
My heart hurts for her. I see this effecting her relationships with long time friends, and it is beginning to effect her relationship with her little sis. We have therapy again next week, hopefully, some breakthroughs will be made.
